Michael's Brain: Part 0
Jun. 5th, 2007 08:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mmerriamSince I'm planning on more these entries entitled "Michael's Brain," I thought I might give a quick explanation of the purpose.
There are things that go on inside my head, things that need careful examination, things that need to be questioned, things that make me react in various given situation in ways I dislike.
The "Michael's Brain" posts will be a way to bring those things into focus so I can examine them.
Does this mean I'll be posting all my dark and angsty secrets to LJ? No, of course not. You don't want that, I don't want that, and neither of us needs that. Most of what I'm doing with the sorting and shuffling and such in my head will be done in private, out of your sight.
But sometime I'm going to want to take something and write about here, in this public space (though I suspect I will friends-lock most of those posts and place them behind cuts).
Why, you ask?
Because sometime I really need to take a thing (especially a thing that is so veryvery obviously wrong or false) and tear it down to its component pieces so I can understand why I do the things I do. If I post it here, for all of you to see, then I have you to bear witness (even if you never post a comment on it, even if you rarely read this blog, you will still be my silent witnesses) and this means I can't just ignore it anymore.
Because sometimes I'm going to pull something off the shelf and look at it and think:
"Yup, looks a lot like that crud that spilled out of my '74 Dart that time I forgot to change the oil for 15,000 miles. Let's just put this dripping nasty mess back where we found it."
And I don't want to do that anymore.
This all going to be a little odd for me. I am an intensely private person, despite the impression you may get from this blog. But sometime you have to use whatever tools are at hand to do the repairs.
That is all.
There are things that go on inside my head, things that need careful examination, things that need to be questioned, things that make me react in various given situation in ways I dislike.
The "Michael's Brain" posts will be a way to bring those things into focus so I can examine them.
Does this mean I'll be posting all my dark and angsty secrets to LJ? No, of course not. You don't want that, I don't want that, and neither of us needs that. Most of what I'm doing with the sorting and shuffling and such in my head will be done in private, out of your sight.
But sometime I'm going to want to take something and write about here, in this public space (though I suspect I will friends-lock most of those posts and place them behind cuts).
Why, you ask?
Because sometime I really need to take a thing (especially a thing that is so veryvery obviously wrong or false) and tear it down to its component pieces so I can understand why I do the things I do. If I post it here, for all of you to see, then I have you to bear witness (even if you never post a comment on it, even if you rarely read this blog, you will still be my silent witnesses) and this means I can't just ignore it anymore.
Because sometimes I'm going to pull something off the shelf and look at it and think:
"Yup, looks a lot like that crud that spilled out of my '74 Dart that time I forgot to change the oil for 15,000 miles. Let's just put this dripping nasty mess back where we found it."
And I don't want to do that anymore.
This all going to be a little odd for me. I am an intensely private person, despite the impression you may get from this blog. But sometime you have to use whatever tools are at hand to do the repairs.
That is all.
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Date: 2007-06-05 09:35 pm (UTC)I mean, there will always be issues (I've got issues, yeah.) but I'd be pretty happy to knock out the big ones and deal with the little ones as they come up.
Rebecca gave me the tools, afterwhich I needed some stewing time. The stewing is pretty much over and it's time to tackle some stuff.